Epic

Greetings,

These days, I had few epic dreams consecutively. Nevertheless, I just remember few of them and there's one strage thing I'd figured out: All of my dreams (that I remembered) were about movies.

Dream #1

I had this wild dream about dating with Batman. Yes Batman. Not Christian Bale. I dreamt of dating batman in superhero suit. We went to "Central Park Mall" then because there were fans chasing batman, we tried to escape by Bluebird Taxi to "Puri Indah Mall". Guess what, the driver was... Alfred.

Weirdest thing is I still remember all the details.

Dream #2

I dreamt of being filmed in Doomsday movie. Scary thing is, the movie was directed when the REAL Doomsday happened. Strange enough.

Dream #3

The movie included was "The Omen". Nah, it wasn't a scary dream unlike the movie. In my dream, there was a new clinic opened next to my dormitory, it's called "The Omen" and only special person could enter inside. (I think it was influenced by recently famous clinic joke, "Tong Fang")

Dream #4

It just happened 2 days ago, I had a dream about cruising on Titanic. BUT but but, the dream was on Chinese. I remember spoke chinese to a lady on the ship. She complained to me of how the ship didn't provide towels for her family. Until when the ship sinked, she still complained me about those towels.

Because of that random dreams, I often wake up feeling tired, puzzled, extremely happy, etc etc. Maybe it's because of my over-imaginative mind :\

Recently, I'm being a fan of the color that I've never liked before. RED. I realize that red is pretty neutral for mix and match and it could give new and fresher look!

I've just found out a red briefcase in mom's closet. In love with it :)

From,

A girl who just had these hectic dreams at night

Take A Chance

Greetings,

Bored. Nothing to do. So I did this little amateur photo session.

Do you see a small logo beside my photo? I just designed a logo for this blog, here's a zoom of it:

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I've just finished reading a superb book about Merry Riana, a young talented motivator, company owner who received her first 1 million dollar at the age of 26. One word after reading her books. WOW. She has this enormous spirit  of hard-working! Gonna add her as my new favorite motivator!

By her experience, I could say that I learn to : "Get out from your comfort zone and stand out"

That phrase remind me of back then, when I was about to enter college. I planned to take an usual way by entering straight to the college. Somehow, God has his own plan. I took a chance of learning at a place that I've never thought about: China. I must postpone 1 year of my uni because I need to learn the language. At first, I was so scared because none of my friends took this alternative and I thought "I don't want to waste one year of my uni" Eventually, after a year in China, I feel nothing but to be grateful to be placed there. I feel grateful to take different alternative way from my friends. I'd learnt so many new things in various perspectives and my eyes are gradually opened about this world. Well, what could I say, it's better to take a chance :)

From,

A girl who was afraid to be different back then

Fears are Friends

Greetings,

How's your holiday going? So far I've seen, all the school's students already finished their holiday since  july beginning, and now university students are also going to start their new semester!

I'm also going to start my new semester soon which is on September 6th. But I must go back to China on this August 24th :( I still have 2 weeks of holiday to enjoy with.

One of my holiday activity is doing a part time job as teacher assistant. Well, even tho I worked with my mom but still I really glad to have that experience. I'm teaching at my beloved former school, Santa Laurensia on the primary school. Here's a preview of my former primary school:

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Enough with my school intro, here goes the point. I have one student, who's always crying at school, begging her teacher to send her home, and asking everyone how to get to her mother. At first, I thought "Ah, maybe it's the first day school panic" but week by week I saw her still crying at school. Once, she cried by herself in front of me and yelled "I want my mommy" so I asked her why does she always cry at school. She said "I don't like here, school is scary I just want to go home or at least call my mom now" Then I know the main problem : FEAR

Everyone has fears. Children, teenagers, adults, and elders. Fears are part of our life that we have to deal with. God gave us life with its own goods and bads. As an ordinary person, I also face fears all the time. Remembering my childhood, I remember that I wasn't the bravest kid at all, not even close to brave. I'm a scaredy cat. One of my biggest fear that time was to meet other people. I tend to hide behing my parents back whenever I saw people. I could get cry easily when another people except my family touched me. So, I was labeled like that. 

As I grew into teenagers, I thought I could change that easy, but I was wrong. Fears come and go. Since I was labeled as a "shy scaredy cat", I gradually really attach to that label. I was so shy that time. I remember how hard could I start a conversation with other people, I was scared to do something different and speak my mind. The worst of that, there was one time I was afraid to look myself in the mirror :) But people, GOD IS GREAT. He knew what I've been through and one day I felt that he said, "Laura, it's time for a new life". But it's not as easy as it said. I once felt that everything is unfair and keep striking on me. I was weak and didn't have a clue why a scaredy cat like me faced this kind of problems. Fortunately, that didn't last long, I realized that every obstacles I've been through made me stronger, made me realize that I have a hero inside me that will protect me from fears (inspired by Mariah Carey-Hero).

Step by step, I began to feel that the burden I carried all along back then, wasn't so heavy right now. As a result, I really got a new life. I became a different type of person from who I was. No, It's not the "who I'm not" type. I began to show other people a different side of me which had exist from long time a go but never had a chance to show up. And then I finished my senior high school, and when I started college I also had this biggest fear of seeing a new world. But thanks to God, family, and friends I could overcome that. It wasn't easy, but it worth to struggle.

So right now, if you people known me personally, you should've known how I change from "old me" into "new me". I could say that I'm a damn hyper, shameless but a bit sensitive person. I wasn't say that I become the bravest girl with no fears. I still in the process to become a better person, but at least now I know fear is not to be feared but is to be friended. Fear is not the only thing that dominate our live. We still have courage, faith, loyalty, happiness that shine inside ourselves.

Sorry for the long annoying post, but yeah I never thought I will look back and talk about how "funny" I was back then, stuck in my little grey world never realize that the other color tries to get me :) Back to the student I told at the beginning. I believe her fear is only the beginning of her struggling. I'm sure that day by day she will overcome her fears and one day will look back and think "how could I be silly like that". For other people who still face their fears, remember fears are friends that make us stronger and become a great person. Don't hate 'em, understand 'em.

From,

A girl who once being called as "scaredy cat"

*excuse my bad grammar or uncommunicative style of writing, I just wrote everything based on my thoughts